Sunny Moody
From 60 Pounds Overweight To The Bikini Competing Stage: 

The Unedited Journey Of Lasting Transformation

It's often not until we hit rock bottom when we finally decide to get back up.
I went about twelve years of struggle with my weight. With 60 extra pounds on my tiny frame, I didn't do much to care about myself or my body. 
 
Lost in a deep dark depression, I didn't know who I was or what my purpose was here on Earth. I was going through the motions, trying to do my best to take care of all those around me. 
 
Something I would have never admitted to at the time, but I was envious of all the amazing women around me and out in the world. 
 
So, stuck in my self-consuming darkness, I hid. I hid from meeting people, from being seen. 

I hated being in pictures, even with my own family. 

Hindsight 20/20, all of this stemmed from feeling unworthy, not good enough. And knowing what I know now, treating your mind and body like crap is a fast track to losing your power.

If that wasn't enough, my health was quickly deteriorating. And my doctor hit me with a bleak diagnosis of a brain and spinal malformation. 

It was the news that no one ever prepares for, and it shook me to my core. 

It was also the moment that presented me with two choices. 

(We’re often presented with this very choice at different stages of our lives. It’s a test of your will and determination. A test that forces us to align our actions with what we claim we want.)

My options were:
 
I could sit and wallow in my pain and sorrow while giving up. 

Or I could do everything in my power to change my health and lifestyle. 
 
This was about the time when the doctors told me to prepare for brain surgery. The hard truth set in when they told me about possible consequences like full-body paralysis.

Looking at my husband and my four little girls that needed me, I couldn't imagine not being there for them. Not showing up in strength and not being their example was NOT an option. 

The biggest shift came from recognizing that I’ve given more weight to my excuses, than I have to making the change I claimed I wanted.

I was the only one that could make the change. I realized I was in control, and no one else was going to do it for me. 

If you're waiting for the moment where I went from being 60 pounds overweight to hitting the competing stage in my bikini...

It didn't quite happen in this linear way that most people fantasize about.

It was a bumpy ride. But along the way, I came to key realizations that drove my transformation

And that's what I really want to share with you. 

These realizations came to me in hindsight - after the roughest patches of my life and through my transformation. 

So I'm hoping they'll help you - no matter where you are in your life right now. 

Hindsight Realization #1
If You Rely On Drastic Changes To Achieve Your Transformation - You Will Fail

When I first decided "enough was enough," - I dove headfirst to create massive changes in my lifestyle. 

I took up extreme measures because I thought that was the only way. 

I committed to fad diets, where I'd drink two shakes per day. My calorie intake was ridiculously low. I did cleanses, ate high protein, gave up carbs. 

Not only that, but I'd workout twice a day. 

The scary part is - is that when this approach gets your results at first, it feels like you're doing the right things. 

But the problem with extremes, you can't stay on one end of it for too long. Inevitably, you'll swing. 

So, after I'd get bored with my latest fad diet - and feel so hungry from depriving myself - I'd go on binging sprees where I'd satisfy all of my cravings, all at once. 

Funny how it works, when we deprive ourselves of something - we want it the more.

The thought of giving up the foods I loved would launch me into overindulging.

When I realized this was happening, I knew I needed to change my approach. 

My non-negotiables were:
  • Food needs to taste amazing
  • I need to be able to enjoy my food, and not feel guilty
  • ​I had to have a sense of control over my eating habits, and not the other way around
  • ​I needed for the food to give me sustenance and energy to keep going (not make me feel deprived, hungry, and tired)
With those things in mind, I took a leap and decided to hire a personal trainer who would teach me how to eat correctly, how to hit my goals, and reveal my blind spots.

Learning how food was affecting my body was so liberating because it put me in control of my body and my health. 

I learned what to eat to achieve my goals without crazy FAD diets. Within weeks, I was no longer having cravings. My headaches disappeared. I had enough energy to keep up with my little girls. I was sleeping better. 

And best of all, I was watching my body transform (husband noticed too). 

Nothing like visible proof in the mirror and feeling good in your body to reaffirm your actions. 

It just takes a little bit longer than most people are willing to wait. 

Hindsight Realization #2
The Real Transformation Happened Outside the Kitchen & Outside the Gym

What ultimately got me on that stage wearing a bikini was so much deeper than the nutrition plan or the exercise program….

The biggest surprise from hiring a personal trainer that could teach me how to eat and how to work out for my goals was the incredible shift I witnessed in my mind. 

I realized that the weight loss and the body transformation were just a by-product of an internal shift. 

This shift can only happen when you completely open your mind up to CHANGE, and take responsibility for your circumstances. 

For me, it took getting hit with a life-threatening diagnosis to claim the control back. But it doesn't have to take that. 

It's true - committing to the change is the hardest. 

Stepping out of your comfort zone is the biggest leap you'll make.

I remember walking into the gym, well aware that I don't look like anyone else in there. And it was extremely intimidating. 

I was 60 pounds overweight. I didn't know how to use any of the machines, the names of exercises, or how to even do them.

The little voice that told me I wasn't good enough didn't suddenly leave me when I decided to step out and make this change. 

I just stopped allowing it to dictate my life. 

My trainer told me, "You are here for a reason- you are ready to make a change. It doesn't matter what is going on around you, or what other people may look like or what they are doing. Sunny, this is the time to focus on you and what you want to achieve."

She was absolutely right. When I left all fear behind and took the first step, is the moment change started to happen. 

Hindsight Realization #3
The Key That Brings It All Together (What I Now Call The Anti-Sabotage System)

I've wondered how different my life would have been if I didn't go on this path. Or if I decided to go it alone, without support. 

The thing is, I didn't have an option to - my stakes were too high. Sitting here now, I can say I'm glad it happened the way it did because it brought me to this moment - writing this message to you. 

One time, during my weight loss journey, I had started working out at a boot camp gym for women. 

I was working out with all these amazing ladies who were all at different fitness levels. One lady came up to me after camp and asked, "Why don't you ever wear shorts?"

I was completely taken back. I laughed nervously and said, "My legs are ugly and not good enough for shorts." (Told you that voice is persistent). 

She replied, "Sunny, you are incredible, and your body is absolutely beautiful. You are preparing to get on stage in front of the world wearing a tiny bikini, but you won't even wear shorts to workout?"

Complete shock ran through my body. She was right. 

I went out and bought one pair of workout shorts and wore them the next day. 

Mind you, I didn't just strut into that gym in confidence. I sat in my truck for some time, debating if I want to do this or if I should just drive back home. I sat there in my shorts, crying, trying to summon the courage to show up. 

When I conjured up the nerve to sneak in the door at the gym, thinking I'd go unnoticed - a crowd of cheering women greeted me at the door. 

They clapped and hollered, to my horror, so excited for me taking the leap. This might seem like a silly story, but at the time, this meant a lot to me. 

Sometimes it takes someone else to believe in us, in order for us to start believing in ourselves. 

I realized, we all need someone who can look outside of our mental limitations. 

You need someone to show you your blind spots and the invisible limits you've placed on yourself and your life. 

I’d ask you “What are those limits for you now?” - but the truth is, it’s hard for us to know. 

It’s like, you grow up with a certain smell in your house and you don’t notice it until someone points it out. 

But one thing I can tell you with certainty - is that you and your body can withstand a lot more than you think. It's your mind you have to convince.

Thank you for reading! 

If you've been feeling ready to create massive change, to claim responsibility and take back control of your body and your life...you can request a Discovery Call with me where we talk about your weight loss goals, and your road to transformation. 

Sincerely,
Sunny is a NASM Certified Personal Trainer, Award winning KCBS BBQ Competitor, Ace Fitness & Nutrition Certification, a mother to 4 kids, a devoted wife, and a fitness enthusiast with a brain and spinal malformation and MS. 

“I’m on a mission to empower and teach people to live their best life possible through Health, Fitness while sharing my own personal stories and triumphs through the hardships and challenges of overcoming physical limitations and mental barriers. There is so much more we can achieve when we set our mind to it!”
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